If I Could Only Share One Thing With You, It Would Be This

If today were my last, and I could share just one thing with you, it would be this writing. Please don’t worry, this is not a “sayonara dear world” message at all. In fact, my heart is filled with more joy than ever and I am deeply grateful for the life I live and for all the wonderful people I get to share it with.

 

What I’m about to share might strongly challenge the beliefs of some Christians and ruffle some feathers, so if you think that’s you, you may choose not to read further. If you do decide to continue and want to share your thoughts with me, I’m open to receiving your comments and will be happy to respond.

 

I want to share with you a part of me that you probably don’t know, even if you have known me for many years. The reason I want to share this is not for me, but for you. It might just open up something within you.

 

I was raised Roman Catholic, and chose to be baptized at around nine years old, in a small suburb of Detroit, Michigan. I attended Catholic school from third grade through high school, learning about God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit daily, and often on Sundays. I was raised by very loving parents and my upbringing was a positive experience.

 

When I was 18, my brother Jim invited me to live with him in Osaka, Japan—a world vastly different from what I knew in Michigan. I found myself in the heart of a city of 18 million people, working as a bartender in a British pub, riding fast motorcycles, and hanging out with people much older than me. It was an incredible adventure.

 

I could write an entire book about the 18 months I experienced with my brother Jim. He was my half-brother who took a stand for what he believed was right: getting to know me and our dad through me. I didn’t grow up with him in my life and longed to have a big brother as a kid. My dream was fulfilled, and those 18 months of brotherhood were as rich as an entire lifetime. He took me under his wing and loved me with all of his heart. He transformed my life.

 

Three years later, back in Michigan and preparing to move to San Diego, I had a surreal, vivid dream. I was sitting in a lifeguard tower on a San Diego beach when a yellow phone rang. It was my brother Jim on the line. In a very warm, calm voice he said, “I called to tell you that I am turning over a new leaf in life. I did some things to you that were unkind and I’m sorry about that. I am going to start my life over in Hawaii. I want you to come visit me someday. I love you.” I remember feeling a deep connection with him and saying, “I love you too, Jim.”

 

The next day, I went about my life as usual and when I got home from work, there was a message on my answering machine. It was from my sister requesting that I call her. I called and found out that Jim had died. His passing marked the beginning of a new chapter for all who loved him, awakening me to yet another world—beyond childhood, beyond Christianity and Catholicism, and far beyond the world I had experienced in Japan.

 

The first part of this journey was filled with deep sadness and anger. Thinking that you can’t meet someone you deeply love ever again, can bring with it a great deal of grief. I would weep daily alone in my car, feeling helpless. It felt like I was crying my guts out. I was angry at God, convinced He/She had taken my brother too soon; 32 just seemed too young to die.

 

Weeks later, I drove to San Diego to start my new life. Somewhere between learning of Jim’s death and arriving in California, I heard a melody in my head, with lyrics flowing effortlessly. It was an original song, one that required nothing of me to create. I named it “Jimmy,” in honor of my brother—it was the first song that came through me.

 

Settling into San Diego, I experienced something unusual. I took a trip to LA to experience the Hollywood Walk of Fame. When I returned to my car, there was an empty space where my radio had been and my speakers were gone. Everything else about my car was as I had left it except for the devices that produced music. I remember thinking, “Welcome to LA!”

 

In hindsight, I realize that from the time of getting my driver license at 16 years old until the radio disappeared, I had always listened to music while in the car. For the time being I would sit in silence and drive. Until one day I heard another song playing in my head. It was sort of all worked out and I realized that it was another original song. WOW!! I remember rushing home, grabbing my guitar and working out the chords to support that melody. This flow of music started coming in more frequently, so I eventually bought a Tascam 4-Track cassette recorder. This allowed me to capture all the parts that came to me, like bass lines, rhythm guitar, backing vocals, and more. After some time I had a handful of original songs, none of which I sat down to intentionally write.

 

At the same time, I began experiencing light inside my head when I closed my eyes—purple blobs rolling in like clouds. I also felt a strange sensation just above the nasal bridge between my eyes, sometimes it felt like a soft, flickering electrical pulse and sometimes it felt as though someone were pressing hard on it with their thumb. These sensations were new to me, and I sought to understand them. This was 1992, before Google, so I turned to books and people who might know. Metaphysical bookstores and people who worked at them became a source of support.

 

Beyond hearing melodies, seeing blobs of lights, and feeling unique sensations, something even greater happened. It felt as if my entire life experience up to that point had been wiped clean. The memory of my past was still intact, however something very strong within me let me know that what I learned about God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit was not entirely the truth. In fact, much of it felt like a lie. What was so strange to me is that it was a “knowing” but I had no person or thing on the outside that had given it to me; no one taught me this. This “knowing” just suddenly and simply existed within me, like a new operating system replacing the old one.

 

One day, as I sat alone by a pool on a sunny San Diego day, a powerful declaration arose within me: “By the time I leave this planet (die in this lifetime), I will have reached enlightenment.” I don’t recall the exact words that I spoke, but the feeling behind the words was that the purpose for my existence is to love all things. I knew that love was the key.

 

Fast forward 32 years to 2024, after deeply exploring many spiritual paths, learning from various teachers, meditating for hours a day, and devoting myself to several professions, I found myself at 53, still striving for the enlightenment I had declared decades earlier. The problem was that I still felt like the selfish, impatient, judgmental, scared, ego-centric dude, no closer to my goal. Time felt like it was closing in.

 

On March 1st, 2024, my dear mentor, Gary, told me to listen to an audio titled “The Way of Transformation: Lesson Five”. When I listened to it, I couldn’t believe what I heard. I listened over and over again; I couldn’t get enough of it. The “knowing” that I suddenly experienced when I was 21 years old, where the new operating system replaced the old one, was being answered directly and clearly in “The Way of Transformation, Lesson Five”. To me, this was an absolute miracle. It was a miraculous confirmation that what I experienced 32 years ago was real and that all of my seemingly ineffective steps toward the Truth were all essential parts of the journey. I knew that I had found “Home”.

 

“The Way of Transformation” is the second book of “The Christ Mind Trilogy” channeled by Jayem (Jon Marc Hammer), who channels Jeshua Ben Joseph, known to us in the modern wold as Jesus. Some may be put off by the idea of “channeling”, especially “channeling Christ”, but I invite you to consider it with a soft, open heart.

 

Beyond “The Christ Mind Trilogy” books are “The Way of Mastery Living Practices”, which are Jeshua’s deeper teachings through Jayem that are cultivated in our moment-to-moment life. Although I’ve only been practicing these Living Practices for about 15 weeks at the time of writing this, the experience has been nothing short of transformational.

 

Loves Breath: A specific way of breathing and essential Living Practice Jeshua gave in response to his disciples’ question of, “Teacher, how do you do what you do?” Attunement with breath arising from, and returning to, the pelvis and belly, it pervades all other Living Practices, healing, and genuine transformation.

 

In the Name: An attunement meditation, based on the prayer given to Jayem and used to connect with Jeshua prior to every channeled teaching.

 

The Aramaic Teachings: These reveal their hidden depth and restore the richer meanings of some of Jeshua’s most essential and beautiful teachings, long lost to poor translation. They include:

• The Aramaic Lord’s Prayer: A richly nuanced return to the original meaning of this beautiful prayer, and a practice that embodies a progressive unfolding of potentiality available to all who choose to genuinely immerse in it. Attunement of mind, breath, and body via the power and frequency of Jeshua’s native language of Aramaic.

• The Aramaic Beatitudes: The original continuation Jeshua gave his followers who were steeped in the Living Practice of the Aramaic Lord’s Prayer, revealing the progressive unfoldment into greater depths of Christ Consciousness. Commonly known as ‘The Sermon on the Mount’, the “Blessed are the…” teachings of the Bible, the beatitudes, when seen in the translation from the original Aramaic, reveal with astonishing wisdom the nature and key stages of the soul’s journey.

Radical Inquiry: Based on Jeshua’s teaching in the first three Aramaic Beatitudes, this is a profound method of self-discovery, grounded in LovesBreath, presence, curiosity, willingness and innocence, dissolving illusions held deep in the mind that construct the false self, or ego.

 

If you feel that your path is “The Path of Love,” which I call “The Christ Path”, I invite you to listen to and/or read “The Way of the Heart: Lesson One”, the first book in “The Christ Mind Trilogy”. If it moves your heart, I invite you to listen to and/or read it daily for 30 days. Here is the link: https://www.christmind.info/t/wom/woh/l01/

 

I believe there are many paths that lead to Infinite Love/God/The Ultimate Truth. I have practiced and experienced several of them. What I call “Home” may not be your path. I am not here to persuade you to do or believe anything. I am here to love you and to share with you a deep, genuine desire that has been growing within me, a truth I feel compelled to express.

 

If you have any questions or comments, please leave them below or send me an email me at [email protected]

 

Thank you for reading.

 

Love always,

Bodhi